Faith Restarting
Saturday, November 12, 2011
Monday, November 7, 2011
Nothing seems to be going right.
The past 4 months of my life have not been the easiest, and you could probably argue they have been the hardest. I find myself going through some changes, but the hardest part has been having to accept the changes that have gone in my life. See, my family is going through two really difficult situations, and most of the members of my family have been acting like a caitiff person would, this causes a derogatory of them in my eyes. Not only are my family's cowardly actions a problem, but between Physics, Calculus, AP English and AP Spanish I feel like my head is going to explode. Truth be told my grades have dropped because I can't dedicate enough time to my school work, not only because it is too much, but because I spend at least one night a week in school in class meetings, and these meetings have this special talent to be held on the days that I have most homework or more classes to study from.
Other than school work and family problems I also feel like there is nobody I can turn to. I know I haven't been the most affable person lately, and have showed animosity towards most of my friends, so I feel like I've pushed them away. I don't blame them for averting me, but this same feeling has made me feel like I'm just falling deeper and deeper into my hole of desperation.
I guess this is probably a bit too personal to write on here, but lately I find myself to not be so conscientious as to where I talk about my problems, but if I didn't let all of this somehow I was going to blow up.
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Monday, October 3, 2011
Becky:"Of course I know who you are! I've seen enough pictures, and you look just like my brother Danny."
Titi Aidita: "Oh Becky, you have the soul of a child, just like your dad. He was always joking around and having fun. Nothing could ever bring him down."
Becky: "Nothing still can Titi. He always has a smile of his face, and nothing is ever too bad for him. He sees the positive in everything."
Titi Aidita:"Yes, he does. I remember the day I died was his birthday, he was joking about me dying that day. When Papito Dios asked me to go with him, I felt terrible. Couldn't believe that what your dad said came true."
Becky: "He couldn't believe it either. He's told me that sometimes he still feels bad about it."
Titi Aidita: "Oh no, oh no, oh no! You tell him that I say it wasnt his fault. But that between staying here, and suffering from cancer, and going to heaven with God, the latter was far more appealing. And that in time you will all join me here"
Titi Aidita: "A whole eternity to tell him how wrong he is to feel guilty. He'll get tired of it in no time."
Becky: "I doubt he'll be tired of it. On the contrary, he'll be trilled. He constantly says how he never had the oportunity to bond with you, and how much he would love to have a hug from you."
Titi Aidita: "Yes, Mami and papi always excluded me from the boys. There was 5 of them, and only one of me. And I was tiny. For some reason, they believed I would easily break. They were right."
Becky: "No titi, you didn't easily brake. You fought with a desease that was terminal and you knew death was inevitable. You were strong for your brothers, and your parents, and the rest of your family members, and you should be admired. At the age of 14 I would have not been mature enough to face death the way you did."
Titi Aidita: "You know who should be admired? Mami. She is the strongest person I know. After I died, I decided to watch over her, it was logical that she would have been weak, fragile and broken. But no, instead she consoled everyone. Her sisters, her sons, papi, everyone who came to her because of my death was consoled by her. She didn't break down to cry until months afterwards."
Becky: "Oh Titi, Abuela is stronger than you think. She must have been ambivalent about the whole thing. She beat breast cancer, gave birth to 6 children, lost one of them, and raised 5 excellent men. She deserved to break down long before she did. Luckily she recovered fast."
Titi Aidita: "Becky, you are a smart girl. You cherrish your family. You care about it, always keep that in thought. It is something important. But Becky, it was nice to meet you after watching you from heaven all these years."
Becky: "It was nice to meet you too titi. I've heard nothing but great things about you, and today I confirmed them."
Titi Aidita:"Bye. See you, but I hope not so soon."